Late update

This was kind of a rough week with a migraine and a few sleepless nights that made thinking, much less writing, difficult. I did move this draft over 85k, nearly 86k and started Aila’s second POV which I am finding a lot of fun. I adore her character, but she doesn’t get much page time in this story.

I also got to write a very anti-climatic scene that was actually pretty fun.

I might not have written much this week, but I did have fun when I got the chance.

I had so much trouble picking a snippet this week, but here we go, enjoy!

              “Zuriel!”

              They flew apart at the sound of Chiron’s voice. The wizard rushed into the room looking uncharacteristically frazzled. “The wards.”

              “I know.” Zuriel squeezed Aila’s hand and dropped it. “I felt it. Can you take her to Agur?”

              Chiron’s wide eyes landed on Aila, seeming to see her for the first time. He looked back to Zuriel and nodded, his composure returning somewhat. “Yes, of course.”

              Aila turned to Zuriel, grabbing his face, forcing him to look at her. “I love you. We will figure this out, whatever it is.”

              I wish that were true. He thought, but nodded and kissed her briefly, pulling back far sooner than he wanted.

              “Go.” He stepped back. Aila hesitated just a moment before turning and following Chiron.

              The wizard led Aila past Halvar and into the hall.

              Halvar raised his brow to Zuriel who turned and started gathering his armor.

              “You’re kissing again. Did you fix things?” Halvar asked as he helped Zuriel with his armor.

              “There is nothing to fix and no way to fix it if there were.” Zuriel growled.

              Halvar said nothing until they reached the last piece of armor. “It’s just temporary. After you deal with Samael, you and Aila can pick up where you left it.” He handed Zuriel his sword belt. “Try to leave things in a good place.”

              Zuriel stared at him a moment before blinking and taking the belt. His heart dropped as he realized he had made the wrong choice. He had to sell it. The way Halvar saw it was how everyone had to see it.

Good Week

I had several good writing days this week and the draft now sits just over 84K.

I have scratched out several versions of the scene I am working on so it feels pretty smooth writing it. The previous scene included one of my favorite characters to write, Harkin and I had a lot of fun with him.

Still in a rather sad part of the story, but some how I am still having fun writing. I feel its coming out well which is satisfying.

Snippets from this week’s work:

              “There must be something.” The voice was familiar though the tone was so out of place, Harkin couldn’t immediately place it. “Come on.”

              Harkin slid forward slowly, peering into the room as it came into view inch by inch. He barely breathed as the man shuffled around the room. Finally, the form of the man came into view, his back was to Harkin as he hunched over, searching through the small collection of books that sat in a pile near his bed. The man stood, pushing a hand through his black hair which appeared to have been an action  he’d done repeatedly through his search. He turned to the side and Harkin drew in a sharp breath as he realized who it was. Keiran.

              Pulling back into the vent, Harkin berated himself silently for reacting. If he’d been heard…

              “Harkin.”

              With his eyes squeezed shut, Harkin remained where he was, flattened against the bottom of the vent shaft, hardly daring to breath.

              “Well, that explains how you’ve been getting around then. I already know you’re there; you might as well come down.”

              He made no movement. Perhaps Keiran would assume he’d imagined it and leave. The sudden warmth in his enchanted slave cuffs disabused him of the notion.


              “I knew it.”

              Zuriel froze. Every function of his body seemed to cease at the sound of Aila’s voice. At once it felt like both a balm and a knife. He’d missed the sound of it, but there was a bite to it that cut him to the core. She was hurt and angry and she had good reason to be.

Bracing himself, he slowly turned to face her despite a deep urge to open another bleed and run. He’d been hiding for so long. As hard as it was going to be, she deserved some kind of answer, even if it couldn’t be the truth.

              As his eyes fell on her, his lungs emptied, and his heart crumbled in his chest. She stood with fire in her weary eyes, highlighted by the dark circles under them. The exhaustion and pain on her face and in her bearing broke something in him. He had done that. The hurt, lack of sleep. His choices had left her wounded physically and mentally and he hated himself for it.

Thanksgiving

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Me and my family did.

I did very little writing. The last time I opened the document was Tuesday, however, I did write over 1k before that so it’s now over 81k.

I am wrestling a little bit with scraping this and starting over because there are already several changes I want to make to it, but I think it would be best to finish this draft and do the rewrites for the next one. I do, however, pause and scribble on some of those rewrites on occasion. Technically I wrote about 3k this week, but most of it was rewriting the beginning scenes.

In part, I think I am fussing because Zuriel is really sad and it can be uncomfortable to write sometimes.

That said, here’s a bit of what I am working on:

              “The Glass Cup?” Zuriel asked with as casual an air as he could muster. It had been three days and he was running out of way to avoid Aila.

              Halvar stopped and turned to Zuriel with his brow raised. “This is your time with Aila.”

              “You’re always inviting me.” He shrugged. “Tonight I’m agreeing to go.”

              Halvar frowned and crossed his arms. “What’s going on with you?”

              “Nothing.” He shook his head. “Never mind. I’ll see you tomorrow.” Zuriel waved to Halvar who started to protest as Zuriel opened a warp bleed and stepped through. With a deflated huff he found himself standing in one of the hallways instead of the entry hall like he’d aimed for.

              He looked both ways before shrugging to himself and turning right, not certain where exactly he was in the palace.

              As he wandered the halls trying to figure out where he was, his mind drifted back to the same struggle he’d been wrestling with for days: Aila.

              His promised. His love. The woman whose heart he couldn’t protect no matter what he chose to do. If he ended it, he would hurt her. If he stayed and simply put off marrying her, she’d be hurt by both his behavior and [redacted event]. He couldn’t tell her why they couldn’t marry and he hadn’t come up with a good enough lie to fill in the lack.

              Realizing he was near his room, he relaxed somewhat and started toward his chambers, but froze at the sound of soft singing.

              Aila.

Hit a bit of a snag but still working

I have passed 80k for The Shadow of Vale now. I have a pretty good idea of where the next bit is going, I just need to decide which of the little paths to take to get the characters and story to move where I’d like. Most of my work this week has been in a scene with Harkin laying down some foreshadowing which is always fun for me and is a special relief from Zuriel’s scenes at the moment.

Here’s a snippet of my time with Harkin this week:

              He took a deep breath before nimbly jumping off the bookcase and landing in a crouch on the cold stone floor where he lingered a long moment, taking in the familiar space.

              With a grin on his lips, he stood and ran his fingers along the spines of the books on the shelf as he moved deeper into the library where he’d spent the first fifteen years of his time in Halcyon after the fall. It felt good to be tucked away within the wards again despite his ever-present anxiety that they would finally work out enough anchor points to break the ward, or perhaps just punch a hole large enough to get something or someone inside.

              For fifteen years he worked through Agur’s histories and notes. After seven years he was completely convinced that all would be lost if Samael got his hands on the information tucked away in these halls. In meticulously recorded notes, thousands of years of learning stood waiting to be picked up and brought to life again. What it would do with that life would depend on who revived it.

              From what he read in Agur’s personal histories, he could see why The Great Creator would ordain elders to live such extensive lives. Only through such lengthy study could anyone hope to reach the apex of what magic could do. The things Agur had worked out not only about magic, but the ways of man, couldn’t be learned any other way as far as he could see.

              Though he wasn’t certain that the perspective of a broken odiar mattered even when aimed at the mind of the greatest wizard who ever graced Vale.

Big Week

I had several really productive writing days and I am just over 79k now.

A lot of what I wrote this week is highly spoilery as it’s a pivotal point in the story and I am having a lot of fun writing it, though I suspect a lot of it won’t survive revision as there is a bit of thinking on the page going on.

That said, I wanted to share a good chunk of it that doesn’t spoil, but hopefully peeks interest. Enjoy!

              Agur nodded, his eyes drifted from Zuriel as if looking at him was uncomfortable. “Vale is a nymph planet. A young one. We aren’t certain how our elder system works yet, but each nymph planet has elders. The numbers differ. The life spans. There is one planet I’ve read of where one of the races has no elder.” His eyes landed on Zuriel with disconcerting focus, though it seemed an action Agur had to force himself to do. “As far as we can tell, there is one Vale elder for each race and we live until we are killed.” He turned and began to pace again. “We might be able to get sick and die, but that hasn’t been confirmed.”

              Zuriel watched Agur’s movements in silence as he seemed to be lost within his own mind. Why had he come to his room, warded it, and went on a rant about elders on nymph planets?

              As if reading his mind, Agur stopped and let out a sigh. “I am nearly as old as Vale.” His was low and carried a note of sorrow. “I have lost track of my precise age, but I am in my eleventh millennium. Ten thousand seven hundred and something years, give or take a century.” He turned to face Zuriel who’s mouth had dropped open. A breath of a laugh escaped the wizard at the sight. “I say this to explain that I no longer remember what it is to be mortal. To fear death.” All humor left him as he dropped his eyes again.

              A deep sense of unease filled Zuriel as the elder wizard seemed to wrestle with himself.

              “I’ve grown accustomed,” he began again, slowly pacing with his hands behind his back, “to creating and carrying out long term plans. Perhaps my decision to avoid marrying again has proven to leave me at a disadvantage. I had sent Cyrus and Akil out to find a nymph son, but when Samael began his attack, I will confess, I was surprised. I believed I had more time.” He sighed and shook his head before continuing.

              “I had planned to create several duelings.” He gestured to the room around them, “This hadn’t been meant to stand as a last bastion against Samael, but was intended as a training grounds. I had meant for you to be better prepared.”

              When Agur’s voice faded Zuriel spoke up, voicing the fear that the wizard’s demeaner and words had been pulling back to the front of his mind. The fear that had taken him weeks to push aside. “You don’t think I can beat him.”

              With another heavy sigh Agur met Zuriel’s eye. The regret in his gaze sent a chill through Zuriel.

              “You were created to be Samael’s undoing, but what you have to do to achieve it…” He shook his head and looked away again. “It isn’t fair to ask of you. I have no other solution to offer, even now.” Raising his eyes to Zuriel’s again he added, “but it isn’t fair.”

              Zuriel felt his mouth go dry. “What do I have to do?”

              Agur held his gaze in silence for a long moment. Zuriel’s heart pounded as he watched the wizard’s internal struggle as it presented itself across his features. He opened his mouth several times before he finally spoke again. “You have to…….[redacted]”

Slow going, but going

I have gotten this draft up to 74,400 words. I did not feel well most of the week so writing was a little more difficult than I would have liked. I am also a little stuck. I know where this part of the story is going but I am sort of tripping over how to get there. The scene I worked on most of the week I probably won’t keep cause I can’t really find the point of it other than I enjoyed the idea of it.

Since I have been feeling better, hopefully I can get more written this next week.

In the mean time, here is a bit of the fluffy, indulgent scene I worked on this week:

              “Hey,” he said as a smile spread on his face briefly before her solitude registered drawing his expression to a frown. “I thought Zia was looking after you?”

              Aila sighed and closed the book she had been reading around her finger. “She just left a little while ago. How was training? It seems like you just left.”

              Zuriel leaned down and kissed her briefly. “It was fine.” He paused, studying her face. “Am I smothering you?”

              Aila let out a breath and smiled. Her smile was small, but bright and genuine. “No.” After a pause she shifted on the bed and patted the mattress beside her. “Sit with me.”

              “Aila…”

              “Don’t be silly, sit. You are truly not smothering me, quite the opposite.” She paused and met his gaze meekly, “I missed you.”

              Zuriel sighed, his heart throbbed at the way her voice grew soft and small when she said she missed him. He sat on the bed and wrapped his arm around her as she settled against him and opened her book again.

              “What are you reading?”

              “Elgor’s Quest.” She said, turning the book to look at the cover a moment before opening it again.

              “What’s it about?”

              “Elgor…and his quest.” She grinned up at him.

              Zuriel rolled his eyes and reached down to tickle her side. Giggling, she squirmed and pressed her face into his shoulder.

“What’s his quest?” He asked, his voice colored with laughter.

              “I don’t know!” She laughed and settled back against him while showing him her place in the book. “I’ve just started. All I know so far is Elgor is a grumpy wizard and I’m not certain I care if he succeeds in his quest.”

Derailed by a migraine

A little late sharing this week as I was trying to be as still in as dark a room as is possible while caring for two children under the age of 4.

Feeling much better today, but I didn’t get as much writing in this week as I would have liked, not quite 1k. I feel I have lost my grip one a few of the threads and am going through the painful process of rereading the beginning of this very rough draft.

While I dislike everything I have written at the moment (a side effect of rereading this very rough draft), I did want to share a sweet little moment between Zuriel and Aila from this week’s writing.

Enjoy:

              Zuriel felt his heart studder and marveled that she was not only alive but had given him her promise that she would be his wife. This was the first kiss of a lifetime of kisses and eight hundred years was quite a lifetime.

              He broke the kiss and Aila settled back into her pillow with a contented sigh that added to the warmth in his chest.

              “Better?” He asked with a grin and was rewarded with a light laugh.

              “Better.” She confirmed.

              Zuriel brushed his nose against hers, not wishing to put distance between them again, especially after the past days of tortured waiting.

              The sound of the door opening forced his hand and with a slight groan, he stood.

Another 1k added this week.

The Shadow of Vale is now over 72k words which is exciting. I have reached a happy little bubble in the story which is good to write, though it’s a little hazy what is actually happening in this little bubble.

I have always kind of struggled with whether or not to actually publish any of my stories, but lately I have settled on publishing. It will be a long process if the past is any indication, but I am optimistic that I can get one of my stories (hopefully this one) ready to share.

Thank you to all of my that follow this little blog of mine, you’re consistent little nudges of encouragement mean a lot to me and I hope to craft a story you will enjoy and be able to experience beyond the little snippets I share here.

Speaking of snippets, here is little glimpse of Zuriel and Aila.

              “How long…have I been…asleep?”

              Zuriel swallowed past a lump in his throat, enraptured by the sound of her voice though it was rough and quiet. “Seven days.”

              “You haven’t left, have you?” Her eyes stayed mostly closed though she opened them at the end of her question to see him answer.

              He felt his eyes fill as he smiled down at her. He was talking to her! “Only when I absolutely had to.” He paused, taking in the sight of her looking back at him. “I wanted to be here when you woke up.”

              Her eyes fluttered closed as her lips raised in a slight smile. “I’m glad you’re here.”

              Zuriel let out a breath as he cupped her cheek in his palm and leaned over to press his head to hers. “I thought I lost you.”

              “I’m here. I’m okay.” Her hand rested on his arm and she gave a weak squeeze.

              He pulled back to look at her. Her eyes opened slowly and locked on his despite obvious weariness. “I love you, Aila. I should have told you sooner.” He leaned down and pressed a lingering kiss to her forehead before pulling back to met her gaze again, but her eyes were closed, a small smile on her lips.

              “I love you, too Zuriel.”

              Zuriel smiled at her, stroking her cheek with his thumb as her breaths grew deep and even. He kissed her forehead again before collapsing back into his chair, tears of relief filled his eyes.

Falling back into the story

Little late this week, I had a busy weekend and haven’t been able to sit down to do an update till now.

I had some good, lengthy writing sessions this week and got The Shadow of Vale over 71k words. I am in part of the story that has kinda stayed the same since early versions. It’s familiar but different and a rather emotional bit of the story so it has taken a bit out of me to get into, but I have come into the happier portion, so I think that’s helping me write more.

It also helps that the new story seems to be napping for now.

A snippet from this weeks efforts for your enjoyment:

              Zuriel sat with his head resting on his arm as he had done most of his waking moments for the past day. Everything ached, not only from the awkward positions he’d spent his day and night in, but also from the battle. Once the adrenaline and shock had worn off, he’d discovered two gashes he’d sustained and several bruises he hadn’t noticed.

              None of it mattered though.

              The only thing filling his mind was the woman who lay unconscious on the bed before him. He held her limp hand in his hoping for the slightest twitch. He frequently searched her face for any sign that she would be coming back to him.

              “Please…” the soft prayer fell from his lips for the thousandth time.

Since coming to Vale he’d been taught about the nymph God, the Great Creator, whom they sometimes called Voa. To his ear it sounded like the God he’d learned about at church and he wasn’t sure which one he was praying to anymore.

              He’d pray to the whole pantheon of sorcerer and naim gods if it meant hearing her voice again; Feeling her touch.

Slow but steady progress

I took a week off from updates as I forgot and also, didn’t write much. I am making lots of progress in my new story, but I am stuck with a few of the subplots for The Shadow of Vale.

The Shadow of Vale is now over 69k so I am making slow and steady progress. A far cry from the 3k I wanted to be getting through each week, but I do have some 35 pages of scribbles for the other story, which I also am enjoying.

Since there are such spoilers in this part that I am working on for The Shadow of Vale, I have just a brief snippet to share:

              He tied off the bandage and shook his head as he looked over her. “This is beyond me. I don’t know how she’s alive, Zuriel.” His voice had lost its even tone and when Zuriel met his gaze there was an anxiety in them that rekindled his own fears. “You need to get her to Rafael. Now.”